Starving for Intimacy

Starving for Intimacy

So, the past few years I have been enjoying getting people together (and still do) and uniting fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. Fellowship is VERY important to every person…God created Eve for Adam, because “it wasn’t good for man to be alone.” We all need each other…we need encouragement, wisdom from others and company at times. Sometimes we just need people to listen to us and not say a single word. Other times we need others to correct us in love “rebuke a brother in love.” I know for myself, there have been many times where I wouldn’t ask someone for advice, but something deep inside of me was longing for a word in season or some good advice. I don’t always allow everyone to speak into my situations and that’s actually using Godly wisdom…but I’ve learned that not everyone is going to say what I want to hear and that’s a good thing! “God works all things together for good for those that love him and are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28. I also appreciate the times where people can relate to me and really speak into my life with compassion and love. It’s those times that I am really ministered to and can actually receive love. See, God has shown me that in the past I have avoided TRUE intimacy….

What is true intimacy? It is giving and receiving. It is NOT one sided…it is not giving everything until you are left feeling empty, it is not constantly receiving either…being selfish. It is ALLOWING others to pour into you while allowing yourself to pour into them. Worship is a lot like this. We are not only giving to God…but he wants to minister to us as well…and pour into us. Being in a relationship is the same way…just as we are called to be in a relationship with our creator and lover of our souls, so are we supposed to have intimate relationships with others.

I was recently shown some things that made me step back and re-evaluate my priorities. God is so faithful to not leave you in a certain situation if it isn’t healthy or what he has called you for. Priorities should be like this: God, family, friends. We should always put God first…in ALL things, even the small things. He loves to be included in our lives and WOW..what an honor it is for us that the master of the universe WANTS to be so involved in our lives, even the intricate details of everything. That speaks so much to me! Wow.

God has recently been hiding me under his wings…a season of really sitting at his feet. Of course I feel like it is just the beginning though, as I have felt his feathers (wings) nudging me closer to him, like an eagle. I feel like I am allowing him to move me closer and eventually I will be so immersed in his wings that I will know him like never before. This isn’t always a painless experience though. Sometimes we have to feel alone in order for him to tell you, “I am all you need.” Sometimes we need to feel rejected in order to realize that it is he who accepts us. Sometimes we need to just rest and stop striving for his love, when it has been given to us all along. We need to “Be still and Know he is God.” We need to REST in his presence…acknowledge him…ALLOW him.

I’ve noticed that in the past I have been so involved in others lives, that it seems as if my own has vanished. I can’t do that anymore…I need to be filled, just as much as I pour out. It goes hand in hand.

God has shown me how I have been quick to run when the intimate times come up….one on one with someone?? HA..what was that in the last year? I realized that even with God I tend to be shy away from intense quiet times etc. It wasn’t until I actually became EXHAUSTED and frustrated within the last few months that I realized that I need to just SIT at his feet…that I need to sit with friends….that I need to just sit and ponder things sometimes. It’s so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of everyday life. I can’t tell you how many people that I have lost touch with, even family, due to being so busy. It’s sad actually. We should never be too busy for those that we love. It happens…but we shouldn’t let it continue.

I thank God for showing me these things and for bringing about a change in my life….I desire…no I am starving for intimacy…I want so much to just be with people I love…especially in the presence of my Father in Heaven. Let that be our hearts cry….to have relationships….ones where people can trust us and we can trust them…