Homesick

My Grandfather, who raised me with my Grandmother from practically birth, passed away in Nov. 2007.


If there is one person that I wish that I could see again, it is him. I miss him more than any words could ever express. I used to talk to him all the time about everything...he was a great listener and always had wisdom to give.
Grandpa had the biggest heart of anyone that I knew. He was a true giver..always looking out for others and giving above and beyond to even strangers.


He donated a lot of money to Boys Town. I remember him writing out his bills (he would have either my Grandmother, when she was alive, or my Aunt do it for him, since his eyes weren't that great later on in life)..but he would always make sure that they wrote a check for Boys Town.


Since I can remember, I was always very close to my Grandfather. We shared a special bond that others said was unique. I praise God for that...and for him.


I lived with Gramps right up until he passed away...and even helped take care of him in his last months. They were the HARDEST months of my life. I knew that he was slipping away..but didn't want to let him go.


I often think about our memories together and I still cry over the loss of him...I also smile though, knowing that he is with the Lord now.
I am so blessed to have had him raise me...I wouldn't have had it any other way.


I was just listening to this song and the words...soo true...as I think of how HOMESICK I really am...I miss my old bedroom, my old kitchen....just the comfort of HOME...the comfort of having Grandpa there with me all of the time...I would give anything to have one of those days back. How quickly it can all change.

HOMESICK by MERCYME

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now